Healthy Lifestyle

Wednesday Wants 12.17.14

I want to stop beating myself up.

I beat myself up for everything. Lately, working out.  Or more like NOT wanting to work out. I want to do OTHER things, I want to go shopping, run errands, visit friends.

I want to drive around and look at the Christmas Lights (while drinking coffee or hot cocoa)

I want to read my books

I want to get a manicure and pedicure

I want to get a massage

I want to get a facial

I want to buy cute Christmas cards

I want to write my Christmas cards

I want to volunteer with animals

I want to foster or adopt another dog

I want to visit my mom and friends

I want to just browse a book store

I want to paint

I want to cook

I want to do things after work that I enjoy and that do NOT include structured exercise and NOT feel guilty

I want to see Wild at the Ritz after work one day

I want to smile more

I want to meet new friends for coffee

I want to go to new restaurants

I want to stop feeling guilty for NOT abusing my body

I want to stop telling myself I am lazy for NOT wanting to exercise

I want to stop believing I am lazy

I want to stop feeling this lingering guilt over the things I want to do

I want to stop my ALL or NOTHING thinking

I want to believe that if I do not work out or exercise for a while, that one day I will enjoy it again and want to do it

I want to believe that someone finds me beautiful, even at my worst

I want people to see beauty in me, like I see in them

I want to just live my life and be happy

 

I get so depressed and down when I do NOT feeling like exercising.

Today, I feel tired. I have a slight head ache and just had a tough day (Mentally) at school.  I do not feel like working out. Going outside for a walk is brrrrrrrrr too cold, hot yoga, just dont have the energy, yoga on my own……….blah, just not in the mood.

I FEEL HORRIBLE. I FEEL GUILTY. I FEEL DEPRESSED. I am so down about NOT wanting to exercise that I can not even focus on or enjoy what I DO want.

I hate that I feel this way. I want to make it go away. I am trying. I am forcing myself to do things. I know I feel tired and will not really enjoy a workout. Plus I have so many other things I need to accomplish, I feel like working out (even a walk) would take my time AND energy both from me , whatever it is that I have left

 

HOW Do I find balance? HOw do I find peace in my own head ?

 

Your Turn

What do you want this Wednesday?

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