Taco Tuesday

No idea why I labeled this post as “Taco Tuesday”, besides the fact that ……….tacos have been on my mind as of late! I am thinking this weekend may require a recipe or two 🙂 Love tacos ?  Here are 17 recipes to try . You’re welcome! (PS I like the original hard shell best)

Besides tacos, what else is going on?

Books

I love reading. I love teaching reading. I love seeing my students excited and passionate about reading.   I dislike seeing anxiety over reading 😦   I want my students to enjoy it and not feel so pressured to read and understand and dissect everything!

I never really enjoyed reading as a kid.  There was so much pressure to read and understand. There were so many forced and required books. There were many textbook readings and timelines (snoreeeeeeeeeee). My mom and friends are what truly inspired me to become a better reader!  I still struggle with reading out of my comfort zone but at least I try .  What can I say, I have my genres favorites!

Not all of my childhood reading memories are terrible. Here are a few of the books I loved (and still do!)

Sweet Pickles Series!

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Did anyone else read these? OMG I Loved these, I think mostly for the town “map” on the inside cover of each book  lol

V.C. Andrews, Flowers in the Attic

and of course, Sweet Valley Twins and Babysitters Club

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I may or may NOT have tried to start my own Babysitters Club while reading these books…….called “Teddy Bear Child Care”……

Currently reading:

The Woman in Cabin 10 by Ruth Ware. I can honestly say I am engaged and INTO this book. At first, I did not think I would be, but I am at the point where I can not put it down. Granted I have not gotten to the end yet (Ohhhh but I am so close!) so my full review will follow shortly. I am already excited for Ware’s new book The Lying Game, debuting sometime this summer 🙂

Also reading, Esperanza Rising, along with my students for class 🙂

It is a pretty light week. Things at work have been SUPER busy, and I have also been listening to a few podcasts, so my reading time has been limited. I also did just finish reading  Six Pillars to Self Esteem , which I thought was a great read and very informative!  I love the suggested exercises. Very helpful and intuitive!

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Birthday’s

My amazing aunt, magical and marvelous mother and gracious grandmother’s birthdays are all in March.  We always celebrated my grandmother’s first (Although she hated us doing anything for her!) , my aunt’s on March 26th, and MamaCoffeeChalk on March 30! Seriously I LOVE birthdays!  I think it is so much fun to make someone else’s day special ❤  Happy Birthday to THREE of the most amazing and inspirational women I know and love! Babcia you will forever be in our hearts not only in March, but every day  xoxo

Your Turn

  1.  Birthdays!  Do you enjoy celebrating your own, or others more?
  2. Favorite childhood books!?  What do you remember loving/hating?
  3. Share your favorite Taco recipes, please!

Saving it for Sunday

*Happy Spring!!! Huge thank you to my talented cousin (and coffeechalk heading creator) for the fresh new update!!!!  I feel warmer already!
 Happy Sunday!  It seems Sunday always ends up being my posting day!  Not intentional, but I kind of feel like the name of this post. I have been saving things up ALL week and Sunday‘s are my day where things sort of just ……”Aha!” for me.

My intentions at the beginning of the week always are:   to post more during the week, slow down a bit, not push myself too much………yet it never seems to happen. I just push and push until…..well I can not push anymore.

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I admit. I have been exhausted lately. Not for any negative reason, but just because….Life!  Work, family, friends, balance, me time….I am grateful for Sunday because it is my day to finally realize WHY I am so exhausted. I can reflect on my week and try to make changes for the future.  Which leads me to something that has been on my mind lately….

My shadow self.

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One of my favorite bloggers, Maddy Moon, posted this article/podcast this week which really made me think.  Your shadow self, is that part of you which you try your damnedest NOT to show or peek out too often.  It is the part of you that is truly YOU , yet you have a difficult time admitting or accepting it.  Most likely it is something you do not care for (Duh, if you are ashamed of it!?)  However, admitting your insecurities and shadow self-isms is the only way to self-love and acceptance.

We all have them. We probably have quite a few things we are ashamed of, one because they are not socially acceptable (Like the fact that I feel ashamed and WRONG for not being or wanting to be in a relationship) TWO because we just do not like them about ourselves and constantly try to hide or deny them.Image result for ashamed

So here I go. I am admitting one of my shadow selves. Jealousy and envy.

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I have always been a jealous person. However, I realize now, it was NEVER really jealousy. It was insecurity.  In relationships, I always felt everyone else was BETTER than me, that I just was not enough for my partner.  Other times I feel jealous when others have things I do not. I get a bit jealous when someone receives a job opportunity or promotion that I do not.  At times I feel jealous when someone does better than me in any area of life. Hell, I even felt jealous when an 78-year-old man passed me while I ran my first marathon (shut up!)

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I have kept these feelings inside for so long because I was ashamed. However, the past year I have started letting those closest to me, see this side of me and tell them how I feel.  I never thought the cliche of “just saying it out loud will help” would work for me. Yet, it did.

Am I “cured”? No longer jealous of anything or anyone? No.  BUT, I am genuinely HAPPY for others. The pleasure of feeling happiness for someone is so rewarding, it makes me not care that I do not have the same.  Recently I have felt SO much happiness knowing that my parents are going to Alaska this summer.

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I am so excited and happy for them because they deserve it more than anything. Sure it would be nice if I could go, but honestly, it feels BETTER seeing their excitement, watching them plan excursions (fishing, zip lining, dog sledding and bears, OH MY!)   Also, I feel SO happy for my cousin. I see her finally getting out and doing some things for HERSELF.  Knowing she is taking care of herself and putting herself first once in a while makes me

Also, I feel SO happy for my cousin. I see her finally getting out and doing some things for HERSELF.  Knowing she is taking care of herself and putting herself first once in a while makes me ecstatic.

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I feel happiness for those that are expecting little ones in their lives.

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I am excited for people that are finding love.

It feels amazing to feel happy. I don’t know if I could ever experience this pleasure if I were not able to admit my own insecurities and jealousies.  Yup. Sometimes I still get jealous. Yup some days are crappy. Yes I still feel sad, angry, and lost. However it is getting much easier to let those feeling pass and actually allow the happiness to come in for others

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Phew, that was a lot …see I told you I was saving it for Sunday 🙂

Ok, on a lighter note. I was initially ashamed of my attraction for the beast (yes the beast, NOT when he turns into the “handsome” prince)  in the newest release of “Beauty and the Beast” BUT apparently I am not the only one…..People Think the Beast is HOT

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The “kids” really enjoyed it as much as I did (If you have not seen it, GO!)

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Some of my favorite things:

Bullet Journal for school/work

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I caved and created a bullet journal for my resource room classroom.  It is HARD trying to manage multiple classes, grade levels and subjects. It can all get very messy, very fast. So the solution…..Some things to keep my organized. I like to see “ahead”. So this lets me see any major things like field trips, days off, end of marking periods, etc.  I will be busy filling it in 🙂

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Keeping my assignments, projects, test dates for multiple classes just became a bit easier 🙂

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Semester at a glance. This helps me see the big picture of what major things are to come over the next few months.

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Spring is almost here (for real!)  Some things I currently have my eye on ( just waiting for the snow to melt to actually feel like putting on something light weight instead of the heavy leggings, boot socks, tights, sweaters, down jackets, that I have become VERY accustomed to 🙂 )

 

This makes me want to be “Off to see the wizard”

Loving the “Off the shoulder” look

Oh man, I would live in this all summer (I could also see my mom sporting this on her cruise!)

 

This top

These shorts

ANDDDDDDDDDDD little bit of spring, from my father’s yard to yours………..#fakeplasticflowers

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Guest Blog Post: Feature Teacher

Welcome to my FIRST special Feature Teacher post!

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I am very fortunate to have the opportunity to know some amazing people , that also happen to be some of the most amazing teachers.

We get so wrapped up in our every day lives that sometimes we fail to see or “ask” those closest to us how they think and feel.  I want to give these amazing teachers an opportunity to shine and share some of their experiences, thoughts and tips with the ……..world!

 

My first Feature Teacher, is someone I went to school with.

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Her passion and love for children and teaching was apparent from the first day I met her.  I was fortunate to have the opportunity to student teach with her, I feel we made a pretty incredible team 🙂  (Remember the pumpkin passing A,B, C activity we created??!)

Image result for plastic pumpkin game I am pretty certain she teaches the toughest grade (kindergarten)

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Not only is patience required, but that is such an impressionable time in children’s lives…….If I had my own child, I would want to ensure “J” was their teacher

 Not only is she an amazing teacher, she is also a mother, wife , daughter and friend.  Meet “J” and lets see what she has to share……..

How long have you been teaching?
 8 years
What grade(s) do you currently teach?
 Kindergarten
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What is your favorite subject to teach? Why?
I love teaching writing especially in kindergarten to see stick people and scribbles transform to a sentence with an illustration is amazing!
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What made you want to become a teacher?
I love children and I earnestly care about their well-being.
What type of technology do you use in the classroom?
 
Smartboard and a mac.
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What are your thoughts on teaching cursive handwriting?
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I am more concerned with print in my world.
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Everyone always asks me “What do teachers like to get”…Although never expected, it is nice to get spoiled a bit. What do you enjoy receiving best? (Homemade treats, wawa gift card, target, etc) BE specific 🙂
A wawa gift certificate was terrific:)
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What are your favorite websites to use? Why?
I am on youtube all the time. I love Harry Kindergarten songs and Sesame Street videos for my visual and auditory learners!
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Anything else you would like to share?
Regardless of any paperwork, and there is a ton, I do love my profession and feel like I am contributing positively to the future.

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Manic about Monday

3 day weekends are the BEST!!! 🙂

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I hope everyone had a restful Presidents Day weekend!

I am really trying to keep calm, focused and present.  This weekend was very social for me and I felt ???? about it.  I can not describe it.  It just was.  Not too much. Not too little. Not perfect, not awful, not life changing.

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I did experience anxiety, just the pressures I put on myself. I sort of scheduled a lot and felt a bit robotic,  moving from one task to the next. Image result for she's a small wonder

I was not able to really ever get comfortable or feel present, until I was alone allowing myself to digest what just happened.  Instead of over-analyzing, I just need to accept that “It is what it is”. My weekend was great. End of story!

I learned SO much by just sitting back and observing. I was able to take in the atmosphere, people, situations. I kind of felt like a “spy” and I loved it!! People watching is fun!

Some thoughts, ideas and inspirations I want to share:

ONE……..My parents are awesome, amazing and so inspirational!  This weekend they went on a bird watching adventure!! They walked over some rough, rocky, terrain, socialized, used binoculars and enjoyed….each other 🙂  I can not say enough HOW PROUD I AM OF MY PARENTS.  I love seeing them experience and LIVE life, it makes me so happy

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Not my parents haha

They saw these harlequin ducks and later told me all about them

They even saw a seal!  In N.J.!  I’m jealous!

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TWO………… These dogs are the cutest!  I hear they are high maintence, but I will be checking the local shelters

My cousin and I see a similar looking handsome fellow during our weekly weekend walks 🙂  We really do look forward to his fluff each time!

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THREE:

Pants. I NEED PANTS.  Seriously. It is weird and awkward weather right now. I feel like my legging with boots attire is a no go, BUT it is still too early for those cute spring like dresses (dare I bare my pasty white legs!?)

BUT I hate pants shopping. I really really do.  I do not like wearing pants at all because I can NEVER find a great pair. Something that works with my calves, oh and then there is the dilemma of SHOES!!! 😦

I need pants

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FOUR

Planning a trip here and here

 

FIVE

I’ve been single all my life

SIX

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Books 🙂

Recently Read:

All The Missing Girls (4 stars)

Maus I (5 stars) & Maus II (4 stars)

Persepolis (4 stars)

A Fall of Marigolds (3.5 stars)

The Rosie Effect (3 stars)

Currently Reading:

Ghettoside

Persepolis II

What’s next??

An Unnecessary Woman

Fun Home 

 

SEVEN:  Other RANDOM and Fun Stuff

  • Literary themed tea

  • rearranged my bedroom, hopefully I will be able to get some better sleep now!
  • created an INGENIOUS reading center plan I hope will finally work out (I Have not had luck with independent centers for my kiddos, BUT I am so hopeful with my current idea!
  • horoscope
  • I still do NOT like goat cheese…..its smells like…..GOAT
  • saw this 

Positively Wednesday

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“The desire for more positive experience is itself a negative experience. And, paradoxically, the acceptance of one’s negative experience is itself a positive experience. ”
Mark Manson, The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck: A Counterintuitive Approach to Living a Good Life

 

Oh how I love the above mentioned quote!  I was just listening to a pod cast (Maddy Moon! Hey girl!) and Mark Manson, author of The Subtle Art of not Giving a F*ck was a guest.  This really struck me.  Happiness is so desirable.  Everyone thinks everyone ELSE is happy.  Everyone strides to find things, people, experiences that will MAKE THEM HAPPY, yet the above mentioned quote is the truth

We can not experience happiness if we do not have the negative experiences. Life is NOT supposed to be happy all the time. Improving and growing and being the best we can to OURSELVES is what we need to stride for.  If we can achieve that, we can achieve balance elsewhere.  I am still working on this.

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The biggest hurdle in my way, is just accepting MYSELF as I am. Instead of trying to find ways to change myself, be like others, or find happiness, I truly want to just accept myself as I am 🙂

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Some things I am accepting about myself

I so wish I did not have Misophonia, BUT I do

I can not stand the sound of people chewing! Not everyone bothers me, oddly enough , the people I am closest to only bother me (LOL)  Misophonia explained here

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I love oatmeal. I love chocolate. I love eating the same things over and over until I tire of them.

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I have tried changing this many times because people told me this was WRONG!  Well I am finally accepting that I really do enjoy and eat what I want, when I want. Currently still on my oats and peanut butter kick. I do love my chocolate too, and these look like some delicious ways to incorporate it into my breakfast

I love simple things.  I find restaurants boring and disappointing. I genuinely enjoy eating at home, OR my family’s cooking……..My mom makes the BEST turkey burgers EVER!

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I think restaurants for a first, 2nd or 3rd date are……..stupid. I am not saying it is wrong, but just not really for me.  I find it awkward and weird and maybe…too intimate?  Coffee please 🙂

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I love to read and write.  It is a hobby. I don’t really care whether I am good at it or not, but I enjoy it. It relaxes and calms and soothes me.

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My perfect Friday nights consist of yoga, dinner to go and some time alone to unwind and relax, catch up on blogs, books, etc.

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I love waking up at 5 or 6 am ON MY DAYS off

Yup yup

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I also LOVE going to bed early!

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I like to sit back and “Watch” others. I enjoy it!

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I love people and going out……in short spurts. It exhausts me very easily!  I have tried changing this, but I am accepting this is just who I am

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Manic Monday

Happy Monday!  Did you watch the super bowl?? I had NO desire to watch the SuperBowl. Yup, there I said it. I feel NO SHAME about it either

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Sharing things I love and enjoy has always been difficult for me.  I always felt I did not DESERVE to be happy, buy things for myself, take care of myself. Self love.

I came across this article and ALMOST did not read it.  It talks about being an “Ambition Addict”  Sadly, this is me 100%  Every single point is the truth about me and how my brain works.  Its exhausting ALWAYS thinking ahead to the next thing. I really am trying to be more present and enjoy all the wonderful things (and people) in front of me NOW.  Are you an Ambition Addict too??

 

So I am taking a night just for myself to think about some of the things I am currently loving , this moment 🙂

Just picked up this kimono 

I am loving all the off shoulder spring and summer wear like this ponti shoulder dress, this dress and this

LOVE this love necklace

I love how the school stepped up with Eli 🙂

How cool is this NEW YORK!

How adorable is this unicorn dip

Love transitioning to a minimalist

Strawberries and Chocolate are two of my favorite things. Combine them nom nom nom…..

It’s FriYAY!

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Five things Friday

  1.  I have mixed feelings about the mindbodygreen blog.  I feel some of their articles are ridiculous and push diet culture way too much, and I find myself “sideyeing” many of their posts…….. BUT I am totally loving this article. I can resonate will ALL of these mistakes my brain makes
  2. TWO fabulous books I have read lately?
    1. Maus:  A survivors Tale  This was SOOOO good, I breezed through it.  I did not know how I would feel about a graphic novel, but after page ONE I was hooked!!  I loved how symbolic the book and characters are. I love this as a way to introduce the holocaust to teens, I think it would be very engaging.  I got my mom on board, she is currently reading it. I can’t wait to hear her thoughts on it!!  I have already started Maus II 
    2. Another favorite, The Pearl That Broke it’s Shell  what a beautiful debut novel about an interweaving tale of two different centuries , with so many similarities and finally a bit of hope.  Follow the beautiful stories of two Afghani women and their bravery
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I have always been skeptical and weary of trusting people and allowing them to get close.  Although I am not currently looking to date, the thought of it S-C-A-R-E-S me!   Online dating is HUGE. You hear so many stories of ” I met my (significant other) on  x, y, z dating site”.   Sadly I feel pretty hopeless about the whole love department.  With online dating, I feel people and dates have become, sort of, disposable?  You click through random photos, choosing yes or no, wink or no wink.  You read essays, biographies and book reports about peoples likes, dislikes, hobbies , and everything but the kitchen sink. You see photos with lions, elephants, 6 pack abs, children, cute, furry animals. It makes me feel like EVERYONE leads these amazing , exciting lives.  Yet it is SO deceiving. It worries me that the good old fashioned way of meeting someone and feeling a connection is gone! Personally I NEED that!!!  I could go on for hours and hours, so I choose to just STOP this post here 🙂

4.  Clearing out my…mailbox!

Image result for unsubscribe!  I just spent a few minutes UNSUBSCRIBING to the various (annoying) emails I do not pay mind to.  I am tired of my inbox being swarmed with things I do not want or need to read!  When was the last time you unsubscribed?  DO IT!!

5. Shamrocks and PUPPIES!

The green shake is back!!

Shamrock Shakes McDonalds

I know you are all as excited about this as I am (hehe)

I must be getting old because I am ANNOYED that McDonald’s has added additional Shamrock Shake flavors, including:

Shamrock Hot Chocolate

Shamrock Chocolate Chip Frappe

Shamrock Mocha

Chocolate Shamrock Shake

Bring the original back!! I miss those cups! The new shakes are so fancy looking 😦

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RUFF!!!   I admit I have NO interest in watching the Superbowl (besides the commercials) BUT I will be watching

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Puppy Bowl 2017

 

Your Turn

  1.  Do you find yourself always thinking the WORST first about yourself AND others?
  2. Will you be trying a new shamrock shake?
  3. what do you do for the superbowl?